Fighting and Surviving

a bit of everything was what i felt on my first day at work last week, the 15th. it feels weird being the new guy again. extra careful, youve got to prove your worth and not only that, you have to mingle and blend in with different people, as in different personalities, races. it really is hard. it doesnt happen overnight but i will get there. i will settle in...well, hopefully. it had been a week but im still finding my own space.

speaking of space, i have moved to a new flat, somewhere close to work. i have to admit it wouldnt be possible without the special people around me especially my baby who tremendously inspired me in a lot of ways. i did not imagine moving to london was this hard. i did not have much bullets with me. i did not prepare, so to speak. if i would have gone to war, then i died already. but thanks to the shield that gives protection. no round of bullet but ive got a shield.

i greatly appreciate my guy for giving me that extra push, because im too slow, im too weak. slowly, little by little i become stronger, which is what a fighter and survivor should be. his being organized and responsible is magnetizing to me which is very good. and the qualities that i need in leading my life. after all, it will always be me who will be the captain of my ship and not somebody else.

you know who you are, i love you always...



Diverting....



together with his officemates, we watched Sister Act the Musical in Oxford Circus and very much enjoyed it. i was really looking forward to it because it is my first ever musical experience in London. and it was fantastic! the actors were great! the revolving stage was amazing. it was very clever how they change sets. and the songs... you cant help but join in the groove. it was absolutely an awesome experience. evidently, we were still singing the music while we went home.

A new day has come

tomorrow is going to be my first day at my new work. i feel like a child going to preschool. all the jitters! but...


im hopeful. im positive. im excited. i will survive.

MIKA

Last Monday was my last day at work in Epping. But what I was more excited was the concert of Mika. My baby introduced Mika's music to me. I liked it. We both love it. We listened to him once in awhile. His cd is a favorite in his player. He was so demanding when he said make your 8 june free coz we will be seeing Mika. Of course, Im an obedient boyfriend and also I wanted to see him in person, so I found a swap for my sched.

We were not really in good spirits the night before that so it was extra special seeing a each other again that day. He was in full smile when he waved at me across the street when he came out of the station and crossing the street. That was a very sweet moment. Although he wasnt feeling very well, the effort of coming out was very brave of him. Not to mention, it wasnt very warm that day.

We got to the venue (Sadlers Wells Theatre) on time, and since he didnt have dinner yet, we bought sandwiches for him and an orange juice while waiting for the concert to start.

The front act was a little bit boring. According to him, Sinnead O'Connor style which means that they can also play music in all fairness. Then there was a break.

And!!!!! Mika came on stage in a pink coat with a blue-sequened shoe! Hmmm....

He sang Grace Kelly and the rest of his songs after. It was very alive and he kept the audience jumping and dancing. Even us! I have to say he is a very good performer. He connected very well with his audience. And never did we get bored throughout the show. He was just great! Baby said he will now watch every Mika concert there is.Hehehehe

Now we are still playing Mika on his cd player. We just cant get enough!

Something to be excited for next week: Sister Act The Musical!

TORN

Gosh!!!! I got the job!!!!!

I never expected it really. After I saw that there were 20 of us applying to the post, I said to myself, I will never make it but I did my best. Well, my best was good enough for them. They said they were going to contact the candidates 48 hours after the interview, but as I was just about to go for a bike in the park, literally outside my boyfriend's flat, my phone rang with a withheld number. I answered. It was the ward sister who interviewed me the day before. She asked how the interview went, so I thought it was just a survey. But she said she wanted me to join her team! I was so shocked! Happy! Ecstatic! I told her I was jumping for joy! Unbelievable! I called my boyfriend there and then and broke the news and he was happier for me, that he bought me a new shirt.

Knowing that the hospital is huge and right at the very heart of London, to be shortlisted even for an interview was big deal to me. What more if I will be working there. Just fantastic!

the london eye, aquarium and st. thomas hospital

And few days ago, I went to visit the Orthpaedic Ward where I will be working. It is on the 11th floor of the Main Building and next to it is the River Thames, where opposite is the House of Parliament (Big Ben) and infront of the Main Entrance is the Marriott. Very posh! I have always dreamed of working there and now its coming true. Im so excited!

Now Im torn which job to take... The one in Ealing or this one? Hmmm. Its not hard a choice is it?

aerial view of st. thomas with Westminster Bridge leading to the Big Ben

Moving out and Moving on

nah...its not what you think it is. im moving out of epping and moving on to ealing. from the east end to west end of the central line. resigning from my current job and looking forward to my new workplace. for months, i have been blabbing about transferring job but it just did not materialize because maybe i was still figuring out what to do. it will always be a risk to move. the big city life is never easy.

but now having found a new job, the decision came overnight. i had to take the chance. and besides, there are a lot of issues with my epping job that has to be resolved yet. it just isnt right. plus im thinking, i was born and raised in a city, why get scared?

most people, as like my manager, would think that i am doing this for love. that i am detesting them. the answer is yes i am doing this to be closer to him, but the main reason is that i am not happy with the management anymore, i want to explore my horizon, see what is out there, and widen my opportunities.

there are always sacrifices. it will never be easy. its bitter sweet. especially with relationships. the friendships i have made in epping were real and true. they have been a family to me here in the UK. i will forever be grateful and always treasure the memories we had. its not that we wont be seeing each other anymore, its going to be not that often now. everyone has to find his own path, and i chose this road.

by the way, its my interview today at St. Thomas Hospital. Good luck to me!